This week someone on a homeschooling page I follow asked about assessments. Several folks offered information about free, online assessments for elementary-age students. I took the bait, and signed up, and had Agent E take one.
Then the "whys" came.
Why did she only score one grade level above on math and reading? Why did she not know how to complete xyz? Why didn't I teach her more about [fill in the blank with random knowledge other first graders apparently know].
The "whys" were followed by the doubts.
I'm doing it wrong. This child-led unschooly c-r-a-p is for the birds. I need a curriculum. I need a plan. I should have taught her more about . . . um, everything? My child is only six and I already suck at homeschooling.
Whew. Deep breath, Momma.
I'm embarrassed to say it took me a few days to realize that a 30-minute evaluation, a completely arbitrary hodgepodge of whatever skills this one particular guide deemed important, is not an indication of my daughter's intelligence or my teaching ability.
Then I started thinking: Had she scored way above grade level, or done awesome on every single section, would I have thought this assessment was great?
Sooooo . . . . what have we learned today, folks?
1. There is no way I will ever ever ever be able to teach my children everything.
2. Even if they attended school, or even if we followed a strict curriculum, this would still be true.
3. My children are smart, capable, and learning new, wonderful things every day.
4. I should probably write out #1-3 on a post-it and plaster it to my head.
Have you struggled with doubts in your homeschool this week? How did you get past them?